A lot is going on right now. Last night I went downtown with Morgan, Hanna, and Will. We ended up running into a bunch of our friends and I got completely obliterated. Blacked out, woke up in Ryan McB's bed. Naked. NO recollection of even getting to Shady House. I swear to God I'm not a slut! Only now, I'm not really believing that. Especially after my incident with Josh. Here's my problem-- I am really good at ruining chances I have with guys I ACTUALLY like, and then in some sort of a fucked-up karma, I get stuck with these losers who want to date me. Seriously. Every guy I've liked. Here's how it has gone with Kyle, Justin, Josh, and Ryan: I like them, A LOT, so I end up throwing myself at them VERY early in the relationship, end up having sex, and then they loose all respect and interest. I need to STOP! And then I'll end up having these dweebie guys like Bryan that fall in love with me, want to take me out, be my boyfriend, and do all this cheesy shit. If Kyle, Justin, Josh, or Ryan actually liked me I am most certain that however cheesy they acted, I would STILL like them. So here's my new rule: don't sleep with guys until you start dating them. No shacking (fuck, I like shacking!), no messing around until it is established that the guy I like, likes me BACK. And I need to know that he likes me in a "I can see myself dating you" way, not a "you're hot I'd like to take you home" way. I'm talking to my sister on the phone today about guys and she tells me that I really need to get a boyfriend. Why? Because I'm graduating soon! And I need to be in a stable relationship with a guy, because I have to get married in the next decade. That's shocking. So now I know that my family has been talking about how they think I need a boyfriend. Awesome. I'll try and get on that.
In the realm of fitness, the past 2 days I have been pretty slack-ish. This week my running plan is a 5 min warm up at 4.3 mph, then for 20 minutes I run 90 seconds at 6 mph then walk 2 min at 4.3 mph. I can do this pretty easily, and I always want to push myself a little harder but I want to stay on track and be patient. Also I've been getting some shin splints so I think I'm going to have to add a shin strengthening routine to my workout. I also want to work on toning and strengthening my legs (aka get rid of this cellulite on my thighs.) So after I do my running, abs, and stretching, I want to get on the machines and do 4-5 different exercises.
Good body = confidence = attractive to men = boyfriend.